I have been hesitating for a long time to open up the second scroll. I think i've waited about seven years before i even had collected enough courage to do so.
Not even realizing what i was afraid of.
Maybe i was afraid of reading about the ultimate truth? Or maybe i just wasn't ready and didn't have the right mindset to open up myself for whatever message this scroll would contain?
Anyhow this time i felt i was ready for it and slowly my paw searched for the key of the small wooden box in which i had kept it for all these years!
O opened the box and took out the scroll.
I carefully placed it on my tabel, grabbed a chair and put aside my sword.
As i tried to reach out to open it something strange happened.
Suddenly a wind like a summer breeze came through my window.
bringing in a fresh smell as if the air had been washed . Inhaling this clean and purified air had a strange effect on me. Like some kind of drug . Instead of making me feel numb it just had the opposite effect on me. I was alert as i had never been before. I could see shining through the canvas i could see some letters like small fading shadows, forming strange words in a language i first did not understand. I took a breath, closed my eyes and thought of Aslan and what He did for us at the stone table. Tears rolled out of my eyes and i felt a lions paw upon my right shoulder and heard Aslans voice speaking to me.
Dear Reepicheep, you won't have to open the scroll at all my son, for i am here to give you complete insight in the message it contains.
As you know among all the Narnian animals you've been chosen to be the courts jester, the small prophet that will speak out whenever he wants to. Speaking about the true purpose of my Kingdom. As a real nobel Narnian knight you have obeyed like a servant. For that is what you really are, my little servant, my eyes and mouth and ears. The salt that spices up Narnian life every now and then.
Through you i see, i act and i am. right here in this Narnian world.
Even when you think i am not present at all, i am here with you all the days of your life. Just keep that in mind will you?
"Yes Aslan": i nodded and didn't know where to look.
O, It is allright Reepicheep, you can look me in the face if you like. I know all about your curiosities , your failures and your flaws, so give it a try and don't be afraid. You won't be burning to ashes , just by looking me right in my face, my dear. Have you ever wondered why it is that you have fear to take a look upon my face at all?
You see, your fear is just telling you everything about your inside elaborations and failures. It is telling you all about your inner thoughts, hidden choices, unknown sins and lack and it's confronting you with your own lack of trust . It says nothing about My state of Godliness if that was what you we're thinking! You won't be burning away just by looking at me! So, give it a try will you?
I looked up, found His eyes, and was overwhelmed by the love that was radiating from His face!
As if He could see right through me, inside of me, all around me. Like , if He was scanning every inch of my mind body and soul in just one glance, just one split second.
I immediately knew what He saw and felt so ashamed of myself but He just smiled and kept silent for a while.
You see what i think you see right know i asked?
HM hm he nodded and smiled!
You can see through my thoughts even those ehm... bad ones i sometimes have?
Ah do you have them? He replied . It is a comforting thought to know that you realize that you have them. and even smiled a bit more.
But how can You stand there ,seeing through me, what i think, where i am afraid of. What i should have done but didn't? How can You keep staring at me and not become angry with me, my acts or lack of acts?
Well?....He smiled a litte more. I think.... it is because I love you!
Yes i definitely know it is only because i really love you!
Is that answer satisfying enough for you?
I couldn't speak, i couldn't swallow a felt on my knees and was reaching out to His paws to kiss them.
And He just kept silent, kept looking at me with such loving eyes!!
