So lets see what the result will be!
This is my genuine church where i got part of my spiritual education.
Together with some Coffeebar visits at YFC Eindhoven during the '70-ties and '80-ties
and some bigger events i attended .
It made me help finding my way though life,giving it a clear direction.
I do have had some difficulties with Church as a concept. The way life hardened out on me personally it helped me to curb some dogma's i had learned along the way.
And that's how i found my freedom,the weight got of my shoulder and i finally felt a renewal in my spirit. After Years i felt abandoned of what i thought was "God" until i found out that what had left me was my concept of "God" just the way i had put it together during the proces of attending church.
It's through my poems and carefully looking into nature how i found my way of dealing with God,Life,Faith,Hope,Fear,Sin,Trust,Failure,Joy,Grief,etc.
Sad Song
I used to come here often
Yesterday when i was young
I loved the peaceful quietness
But somehow it went wrong
The stillness now has changed
Into a deadly silence
Every time i try
To set foot on holy ground
The loneliness gets harder
And all my thoughts profound
There is no end in crying
You’re gathering my tears
But deep down in my foolish heart
I’ve piled up my own fears
There seems to be no comfort
In praying to the skies
Cause you’re supposed to be there
but i think it’s a lie
My spirit is unfolding
I look up to the clouds
Butt all i see is unveiled secrets
Just like my restless doubts
I’m very disappointed
In what life has brought to me
But i’m hopelessly devoted
To your love for me
I can not hide my passion
I cannot walk away
I want you just to hold me
Until the youngest day.
